Happy First Year Anniversary to the Yaoi Lupin 3 Group.
For Spug, the dirty baka brain, who keeps me in giggles and smut.


DISCLAIMER: Lupin III characters are © Monkey Punch. You know the drill by now. Nothing intended here, but adult entertainment and fun.
Pairing: Lupin x Jigen
Summary: Jigen’s private thoughts on his partner in crime.

INEXORABLE
Lupin x Jigen
By Janeth “JavaG” Rhian

The hugging moisture on the tanned landscape of my body
Falls listless as our bodies fit tight
Nudging myidesides, velvet soft, smoke deep
I moan awake to breathlessly take in his warm embrace
I can see the sheen of sweat, smell the steam rising
Thrusting forth, resonance from between my thighs
Pushes away the day’s apart spent in aching need


A nose pressed to my check
Rubbing throbs undefeated by this carnal assault
I bend to your will
Harden velvet slips in, tight steel
Endless hands urging me on and one
I am clay in your hands
Molded by steely caresses
Exquisite friction fills me
Your name whispered on my lips
So much dishonesty in your brown eyes
I wish I could see through them to myself as you see me now
Spread out, splayed like a trussed up feast waiting to be
Devoured by your hungry eyes
Nothing left to give
Or take in full payment
For lives spent on the run
Drinking by choice at your wishing well
Drenched in ghosts of desire that never see what I long to know
I quake, phantoms of my checkered past
Remembered times with each hard thrust
As you ride me like randy mare
Do you see me or her?
God … I love him
I take what is offered
That’s all you will give
I steal these precious moments when I can
Because this is all you will let me have
Liquid pours forth unto my chest
Sadly, you never seen my reverb in your haste to clean away
Like it’s something bad or unworthy
God … I hate him
I want him so
Lust after him so

Underneath a heated glance
You rake me with your cocky smile
And I nearly break apart
Broken bones knit together
This skin of pain bloody and tore
Wish I could be numb
Free of the wanting that never sleeps
My knees shake
Breath hums
Thoughts fleeting
Seething needs I can’t control
Feel you, taste you, want you
When will you bridge that gap of empty space that
Hanging like a dead man’s noose
All you have to do is reach out … and …

Do you think of her when I am under you?
Then you smile, in the wolfish way
I am undone
I shred my skin for you
The body fit so incredibly sharp
“Drop to your knees! Say pretty please, baby.”
I am right here!
Why can’t you see me?

Lusty smile plays on your lips
I pretend your love me as you
Shush me with your fingertips
I wish I could say the risk of breaking my heart
Is worth all the pain you put me through
My grief like dust on the nightstand, swept away
When the lust fades
Your want breaks my nerve
I’m only your lap dog beggin’ for love
In the silence of the dingy hideout
I smoke my last cigarette
I crucify myself for your selfish ways
You turn in your sleep
I feel shame as you moan her name on your lips
You don’t even see me, do you?
After all these years, I have watched your back
You never look at me

But you don’t know that I can still smell your scent
On the sheets after you leave
I touch the impression you left in the pillow
I have memorized your silhouette in the dark
I watch over as your sleep
I love to watch you as you sleep
But then I remember all the times
You left for for her
Why do I stay?
Why do I put up this charade?
Is my pride worth all this stupid game you play?
I wish that you didn’t need a keeper as much as you do
Countless times you have shot me through the heart
Made me bleed my soul in exchange for yours
God, I hate her.
Hate you both.
And I feel the nails drive deeper on my cross
Erotic stigmata, burning and painful
Sweetly delicious and twice the fun
But it’s a cross of my own making
Taken by choice, my burden, my guilt
Maybe if I hang there long enough
I won’t feel the pain anymore
Soon it’s time for the heist
We all know our roles
I watch you dress peeking under my hat rim
Soon my lover is once again the thief
His wolfish nature in the back of my thoughts
As we get down to business
For now, I’ll pretend that your mine
You remain free to have my heart without
Your soul attached to it
But for now … this night, after the heist,
I’ll be in your arms
You and me Wolfer
To the end
Inexorably yours