Maybe All One Needs

By Spug and Vee

Chapter Three

 

 

Wesker:   It was the morning sun trying desperately to peek through the curtains that aroused the ex-ventriloquist from his happy dreamless sleep. He was warm but alone. A blanket had been thrown over his curled form; glasses haven been taken from his face again.

 

He knew he was alone even without opening his eyes. The lack of body heat didn't chill him, but it woken a sense of panic he had to will away before slowly stirring in the bed and then sitting up.

 

Alfred was gone. Probably off doing morning chores. Breakfast stuff. Arnold had to tell himself. He had to remember the British man WAS a butler after all.

 

Hazy blue slowly cracked open to a fuzzy room, and he set his mismatched hands into his still blanketed lap and just sat there for a moment.

 

Asides from being alone, he didn't feel all that scared. Last night had sure been an experience, that fit he'd thrown and still the other had run away.  Had Wesker truly made a friend?

 

Oh he hoped so.

 

 

Alfred: While the usual morning would be a rush of activity that meant scolding the newer cooks and having to help the maids in the southern wing, today was surprisingly subdued. The cleanup effort had been nearly finished the night before, and there were no important events scheduled today.. No parties, no meetings, no remodeling... and no guests. Save for one.

 

One little guest who Alfred could devote the day to.

 

He wondered why the thought made him so happy as he stepped out of the shower, wrapped himself in a dark towel. Early that morning, he'd woken up and was startled to feel a body.. A person, clutching him. But when he remembered who it was and why he was there.. What he'd done.. He felt nothing but a sense of calm. He didn't have to work hard to extricate himself from those arms, but kept his motions quiet as he left the room and went to his own quarters. He was smiling as he did it. As he washed what hair he had, he was smiling. Adjusting his tie and tugging on his jacket, he smiled. Placing the monocle over one dark eyes, he smiled. As he passed the dim cook who'd set a fire in the kitchen the night before while making Quiche Tarts, he smiled.

 

Alfred was known to moving about with that relaxed, stoic expression.. The look of dry, reserved amusement that came so naturally. But.. now, he was practically grinning as he walked, as he helped himself to a piece of toast in the kitchen and collected breakfast for Master Wayne, the breakfast he regularly assembled that would sit on Bruce's end table and grow cool as the Batman slept, face pressed into the pillow.

 

He was smiling as he returned to the kitchen and assembled another morning meal- An omelet, sausage, and perhaps too much toast- And headed down the hall to knock quietly on the door he'd be entering for the fourth time in the past twelve hours.

 

 

Wesker: Evil.. no post evil hand did a bit of fumble on the nightstand; he had a hutch. Glasses had to be.. had to be.. ah yes! There they were! Fingers closed onto the thick frames and he brought them up to his face so that he could see the new morning with brighter eyes.

 

It wasn't too bright, the shades were still drawn, but the morning Gotham Sun was vigilant enough to chase away all the dimness. Wesker remained in the bed; for a few reasons. Because he wasn't sure what to do; because his hair and clothes were all bed wrinkled; but most of all, he sat in bed waiting for that morning damn boner to go away.

 

Why today? He didn't get them EVERY morning. In fact it was more not getting them; then getting them these days.

 

He kind of wished he could will it away rather then waiting for the blood to settled. Hands lifted the blanket and he peered down at it for a moment, nothing overly shocking; even if he'd run around with it, he wouldn't have put a maids eye out. But still; just the sight of it made him feel a little shameful at himself. Usually he was alone in his crappy apartment and he could ignore it watching the news, or go and sit in the tub.

 

Go away. He narrowed his eyes and then sighed very loud; only to squeak as a knock came to the door.  ACK! Alfred was back!

 

The Ex-Ventriloquist balled the blanket up over his lap, and clutched his mismatching hands together over it. Don't let him see! He'll think you're a pervert! And the idea of Alfred being displeased at him; even after sharing a bed with him for most of the night; made Arnie feel more ashamed.

 

It would be why his face was red, and his neck was sweaty by the time he let out a cough. "I'm.. u-up! H-hello!"

 

 

Alfred: "Oh!" He half-expected Wesker to be out like a light, but this was.. "Good!" His voice was raised slightly as he waited outside the door, reached up to touch his fingers to the side of his neck with the hand that wasn't balancing the small tray.

 

"Are you, er. Are you decent?" That could have been a loaded question, but he figured opening the door while the man was changing would have been terrifically awkward. Though.. What did he have to change into? Still, he paused in front of the door, watching the wooden paneling as if it were the one talking, and ignoring the prickle of warmth in his face as best he could.

 

 

Wesker: "Are you decent?"

 

What a question! Wesker felt more sweat collecting on his neck, and he jittered in the bed for a moment. He didn't want to keep Alfred waiting; he could hear the light clink of something. Arnie wasn't dumb; he could gather that A) Alfred had things to bring it or B) it was breakfast.

 

"Oh I'm-"

 

Breakfast in bed? As flattering at the idea sounded (and made his stomach growl!) It made him a little sad to think the man was trying to serve him again. Well, if anything, he would have to just enjoy the food like he hadn't eaten in forever.

 

But what to do about... He lifted the blankets to scold at it once more before balling it back over the top. He didn't want Alfred to think he was doing something indecent in here. Maybe if you just keep it covered, he won't notice.

 

"--Okay, just s-sitting."

 

He reached up quickly to wipe at the sweat on his forehead and took a few deep breaths; tried to smooth what was left of his snowy white hair into place and adjusted his glasses.

 

"You c-can come in if you want too."

 

 

Alfred: "Alright," he called, one hand moving to turn the knob and slip inside the small room. When he set down the tray at the foot of the bed and straightened up, Wesker could see a man who looked much less imposing than he had only a few hours ago. He still stood stiffly, had a brisk look in his eyes and put forward more than anything the idea that at all times he knew just what he was doing... But now.. Well. When he glanced up to meet his eyes with smooth yellowish lenses, he looked much more affectionate.

 

After all, he couldn't quite keep his mind off the other, and it wasn't really so odd.. All this was a new and intriguing development, and naturally he'd become rather taken with it. This was something he'd enjoy doing for quite a while, taking care of Wesker-

 

And when you don't need to take care of him anymore, what then? He's a man, after all, sooner or later he'll straighten up and he won't need anyone to cling to anymore. Will you be proud of him, or resentful? You are proud of Bruce, and you don't wish he was a helpless teenager again, certainly.. But you miss his moments of doubt, don't you? Moments he'd come to you, when he'd need the reassuring accent and the steady white-gloved hands.

 

Incidentally, Alfred hadn't bothered with the gloves this morning.

 

 

 

Wesker: He wasn't sure if he was ready for company; honestly, but how could he make a man like Alfred stand in the hallway while he spazed over his own personal conflictions.  No point being selfish. Only Wesker would find such a trivial universal thing as what was afflicting him; selfish.

 

So he just balled up the blanket a bit tighter and turned his head toward the opening door, and despite his nervousness, just seeing the other man entering the room, brought a small smile on his face.

 

There WAS something different about Alfred today! He looked so less.. butlery, even carrying a tray to the edge of the bed. Wesker's vision dropped momentary to the tray and he felt his stomach growl. He hadn't eaten since lunch yesterday; he probably would have some snacks last night if he'd not fainted, but ah well. And wow.. look at all that toast.. that was the biggest breakfast the little guy had seen in years. I can't eat all that. Wow.

 

"G-good morning, Hello!" Arnie jerked his head back up to smile at Alfred, nose wrinkling in a mousy manner, he gritted his teeth in a smile, but didn't move from his position. Oh god, he wanted to leap on that tray.. it smelled soooo good. But y'know....

 

"I'm s-sorry if I was too clingy, did you sleep okay? Did I keep you up?" Hands balled up more tightly, retching the poor blanket between his mismatched fingers.  Why wasn't it going away? God!

 

 

Alfred: "Me? Aah.." He hesitated. There was something.. odd about him this morning. Nervous and mousy as usual, but.. Hmm..  "I slept fine- Please, don't worry about all that. Have something to eat, I'm sure you're starved.." He rested in the chair, crossing one leg over the other and folding his hands in his lap. "I can go and get your things from the laundry room, and then.." And then.. what?

 

Alfred certainly wouldn't mind if Arnold stayed, but of course if the other man needed to go home, Alfred could drive. At this point, he'd do any little favor.. It was because of the apologetic gleam in those rarely seen eyes, the humble way he requested and the blissful way he accepted affection. Doing a favor would be a chore if it were for anyone else..

 

But..

 

Huh. There was something definitely different about him today. He cocked an eyebrow, wondering to himself.. Wondering if he felt ill or.. Hmm..

 

 

Wesker: The notion that Alfred had sleep good, even with him wrapped around the taller man like a clingy monkey, was a settling notion to Arnie's mind; but it did nothing to settle his problem. Just a few more moments, it'll go away. Not if you keep concentrating on it.

 

At the cock of the eyebrow, Arnie smiled and giggled incredulously between his clenched teeth.

 

"Oookay!" He swallowed down the nervously laugh, and just decided if he couldn't just sit there, so he did the next best thing; scooted toward the tray on his butt, keeping the blanket in his lap. "You r-really didn't have to wash them, b-but thanks! This looks really good."

 

Ugh. He hoped Alfred wouldn't take his strange behavior as if Wesker wanted the other man to leave him alone. It was further from that truth. He would have liked to enjoy his company for as long as he could. He knew that after breakfast he would probably have to leave; he couldn't really stay here, soaking up hospitality. But... like they said last night...

 

"I should p-probably go home soon..."  But maybe he could come back another day? Or.. they could arrange something...  He reached for the fork.

 

 

Alfred: "You, ah.." He glanced down at his lap, not paying too much attention to the way Wesker ate his breakfast with one hand occasionally pressing down on his lap. Alfred might not have seen it right away, but.. he wasn't stupid. Though saying anything about what he thought was up would be quite improper. He allowed himself a secretive little smile and kept his eyes averted-

 

"You don't have to. Unless you want to, I mean. That is... Oh!" He changed the subject suddenly, looking up. "If you like I can escort you to the bathing room and get something, er.. Clean for you?" Though he realized as soon as he said it, Wesker.. wouldn't want to.. get up, not if what Alfred suspected was so.

 

"..Or I could give you directions.." He bit his tongue, trying not to make Arnold uncomfortable with all this. He wanted to help, but not intrude..

 

 

Wesker: It was probably a good thing, Arnie didn't know Alfred had figured out 'what was up.' He'd probably have dived under the covers turning completely red. As it was, once he got a bit of that food into his mouth, he couldn't stop eating it. It was.. damn good.

 

When you live off cold cereal or often just skipped breakfast; just pouring coffee down your throat to get going in the morning, you forget how good this kind of food was. When he'd been with Scarface, the puppet always made him eat something. (And thus, he had pooch; another few months without Scarface, and he'd loose a few more pounds.) 'Yer muddah ever teach yah breakfast is dah most important meal of dah day? Sit yer tuggy ass down 'n' feed me one of dose sausages."

 

Scarface might of been quite a bastard, but he'd always taken care of Arnie, even if it wasn't good for him. He'd lived and kept living; now without the puppet, he'd come to realize how bad he was at being on his own.

 

But maybe you have a friend now.  Arnie put another shovel of food into his mouth, took a bite of toast and then looked back up at Alfred.

 

"Or I could give you directions."

 

Arnie blinked under his glasses and then tried as inconspicuously as he could to peek under the covers. He wrinkled his nose with a sigh and then looked back up at the butler.

 

"You can escort me if you want."  Hah! Food wins.

 

He smiled.

 

 

Alfred: Alfred smiled back, and then glanced at the tray.

"D'you mind if-" But of course the response he got was a head-shake,
and he took another piece of toast. As the two ate, Alfred occasionally
helping himself to a small something as Arnold sated his long-empty
stomach, they didn't talk too much. The butler had a feeling that
Arnold's problem was resolving itself, and felt a pang of guilt that he
was there, preventing Arnold from being the one to prompt the
resolution. But..

But really, did Arnold..?

He didn't seem like the type upon first glance, but was there really a
'type'? Everyone did it, didn't they? No matter.. He took another bite
of the tangle of bread, and it was about half-gone when he noticed
that most of the food was gone, and he piped up.

"Shall we?"

 

 

Wesker: Being as there was MORE then enough for little Arnie's stomach (even poochy as it was), the ex-ventriloquist didn't mind it one bit that Alfred shared the food with him. As expected, the butler got nothing more then a quick face-full nod out of the little man before the silent breakfast had continued.

 

Once finished and Alfred had indicated that they should head on. Arnie nodded again, swallowing down the last bite of toast and finally slipped out from under those covers.

 

He still clenched his teeth in worry as he slipped from the bed, hoping it truly was gone. For his sake, his groin was flat, the material only tented a little from the movement, and he quickly smoothed it down with mismatched hands before it could look more conspicuous then it was.

 

Indeed a thought; if Alfred hadn't been here; if Arnold had been home alone, would he have done.. anything about it? Usually not. Rarely did he even give in to his own urges when they were more then just that morning-wake-up-ten-minutes-before-you, even when it was obviously caused by more then sleep. There was something hard-wired dirty into his head. Thanks to Scarface; thanks to pervious attackers, thanks the whole world.

 

But it was gone; and though Arnold looked a mess; his shirt half untucked, his neck sweaty, his face still sticky from sleep and the good breakfast; he was cleaner in body now. Time to freshen up.

 

"Okay." He told Alfred with another nod; taking a moment to pull the blanket back over the bed. Not quite making it, but not leaving it in shambles either.

 

The smaller man took a step toward Alfred and clasped his hands together. "I'm ready to go."

 

 

Alfred: "Very well." He might have retained the clipped sort of speech that he'd been using all his career.. And he'd been a butler for much more than half of his lifetime.. But he didn't sound dismissive or stuffy at all. He picked up the tray- It was much lighter with only a plate and a fork on it.. And was soon walking down the hall with Wesker again.

 

"This is an expansive estate.. As you can tell, er.. There are many rooms and many guest suites, but as this manor is very old and has had no need to be completely retrofitted, there are not many latrines.." There were only one or two for each floor, and in a mansion with only one family and the servants using separate quarters, few bathrooms were added over the years. Only enough to suit a family and a few guests at a time. Alfred paused as they passed the kitchen where he'd gotten breakfast and dropped off the tray to a still sleepy-eyed younger butler.

 

"There are two bathing facilities in the manor and two in the servants' quarters. Master Bruce will be waking up soon and using the one closest to his room, and so we will be going downstairs to the second in the manor." Alfred wasn't usually this verbose, but the silenced between them were slightly awkward.. He wasn't sure why. Something about the quietude of the other man.. When he was silent.. It wasn't unsettling, exactly, but it certainly gave him pause. Just as Wesker thought they couldn't possibly walk further, they reached a large cage like elevator and boarded. The doors clicked shut behind them, and Alfred only looked at the way the light was thrown crisscross over Arnold's shoulders before pulling the lever and sending them down..

 

 

Wesker: Wesker certainly did have a quaint quietness about him. Almost as if he was afraid to talk most of the time. Which really was the case. Arnie had never really been good at conversation. With his doctors, with his rather distant mafia family; even when Mr. Scarface. It was usually the dummy who spoke and Arnold who simply nodded in respect and gave the occasional. 'Yes Sir, Mr. Scarface, Of course Mr. Scarface."

 

It was almost the same way with Alfred as they walked down those long long hallways. The only difference being his occasional. "Yes." And "Of course" were said with a smile in his voice. Now that his particular problem had ahem.. resolved itself, he didn't feel so uneasy. So he paid attention to the surrounded, but mostly to Alfred. He noticed that the taller man wasn't wearing gloves. He remembered how his hands had felt last night, barely scrapping against the skin on his back where his shirt had a tendency to ball up while he slept. The man had a workers hands; not the typical snooty butler's hands. It was obvious the man did more then just butle. Maybe he worked with machines, or who knows. It was like Wesker's one evil hand. They could tell so very much.

 

When they reached the elevator; Wesker was feeling a just little bit exhausted. It wasn't the back hurting or the stiffness in his neck that he use to get from standing for so long with Scarface. Just a little bit flushed in the face and breathing a bit heavier.

 

Once in side the elevator, the ex-criminal scooted a bit closer to Alfred. The motion made him a little queasy due to just having eating, especially the initial elevator-drop feeling. He managed to recover and finally looked up at Alfred and gave him a thankful but pointed look. "I appreciate this much, but you don't really have to go out of the way for me, I could get cleaned up at home."

 

Though he was pretty sure, these bathrooms Alfred were talking about were really really nice. Even had a bathtub? Of course they had a bathtub! His apartment had one, but it was dinky even for him.

 

And would Alfred have anything that would fit Arnie; if what he said about getting him into something cleaner was referring to his clothes? Hm.

 

 

Alfred: "It's not a trouble.." And though he said that less than truthfully to many guests, this time it really wasn't a trouble. Alfred slid back the lever as the elevator reached the lower floor, and the doors slipped open with a low rattle. This bottom level looked rather like a hotel, and though nothing at Wayne Manor could really be called decrepit, this place had a more utilitarian appearance than the upper levels.. Not bare or even somber, but very subdued and practical. The colors were more bluish and gray than the main ballroom, which had more of an earth tone.

 

As the two moved down the hall, which was dimly but coolly lit, Arnold might have noticed that the facilities here were not living spaces but more geared toward recreation. They passed doors marked for weights, aerobic facilities.. Even an indoor pool! But.. Arnold might not have been looking at the doors. He may have still been focused on Alfred.

 

The butler walked with his hands folded behind his back, and they were a bit more creased and worn than one might have expected. They looked much less sensitive than they seemed when hidden by white fabric..

 

The second bathing facility in the manor appeared, as Alfred opened the sixth door on the right of the hall, as if it were meant for many people. The air was clear.. It had not been recently used, and it seemed under stocked as far as towels and soap, but there was still more than enough for only one person.

 

 

Wesker: Indeed, Arnold paid more attention to Alfred then the surroundings, but that didn't mean he walked around like a love-sick puppy. He would give the occasional glance at the recreation rooms as they passed them. The indoor pool got a brow arch; it made Arnie try and think if he could even swim anymore. He hadn't done it in ages. (Well ONCE when Rhino had driven right into the Gotham River, and it had been more of a doggy paddle, gasping like a drowned rat to get out of the water.)

 

"I'm glad." He answered Alfred as the man said it was no trouble. Arnold didn't want to be any trouble at all. He wouldn't have been able to stand it, if he thought Alfred was finding the task of helping him out mundane and boring. (It honestly SHOULD have been that way) but he figured the old butler ...was .. it seemed he was almost enjoying himself.

 

Oh Arnold could wish.

 

When they reached the bathroom, the little man took a few steps into it and then looked around. He looked at the sink the tub, and then back at Alfred, and then just started unbuttoning his shirt! How Scandalous!

 

One had to remember, this was a man who'd lived a lot of his life in a crowded prison, an asylum; with a wooden puppet barking at him. While he had shame and meekness for just about everything else. Arnold Wesker wasn't really bothered with having to undress in front of people. He was so use to either just slumping his clothes into a prison wash bin, or having orderlies take them from him.

 

"Do you want me to just put them on the sink? I can just put them back on, you don't need to wash them, or get me anything." Skin was pale, Thin in most places, pudgy little pot belly; he wouldn't even looked back up at Alfred till he'd shrugged out of his shirt completely.

 

His next response would completely depend on how the butler was reacting.

 

 

Alfred: That voice was completely moderated, and his cheeks remained a modest pale, but Alfred wondered for a long moment whether he ought to go to the on-site physician and have the nurse be sure that he wasn't stricken with Angina. Alfred swallowed, regaining his composure with lightning speed, and held out his hand.

 

"I can take those.."

 

Why had his heart hammered so loud for that second.. maybe two? As he took the garment and folded it over his arm, he got the impression that Arnold didn't mind that he was being.. looked at. For whatever reason, Alfred wanted to see. To look, just for a few moments- Though no one could call the Ventriloquist a beauty.. Alfred wasn't exactly a hunk by any usual standards either. And was that why he wanted to look..?

 

The glasses that brought a quietude to his face, like a blank mask.. And the white, papery skin.. Alfred gulped. It wasn't.. Well.. No. It couldn't be sexual attraction. But.. It was definitely attraction. Something about him..

 

 

Wesker: Now had Alfred been red or had turned around quickly, Arnold would have remember right quick he wasn't in the Asylum, and Alfred wasn't a orderly who was utterly use to seeing every freak, psycho and loon stark naked. He would have gulped and apologized. But since the other man just held out his hands for the clothes Arnie continued.

 

He didn't have much to take off; really. His outer jacket, tie and shoes had been removed last night. It was honestly just the pants and socks. Socks came off first, then his hands went to his belt buckle and pants. A little grunting to get them down off slightly pudgy hips and he was soon stepping out of them and handing them over to the butler. This left the ex-criminal in a pair of old, but cleanish looking white underwear. Asides from the waistband looking a little torn, they didn't seem too bad. He didn't have a lot of body hair, or what he did have was either too light to see, save for the heavier trail that went from his belly button into his groin.

 

No, Arnie wasn't pretty. He had thin bony wrists and ankles; pudgy midsection, thinning hair. Though granted most of his skin looked soft and pale, he wasn't breaking out in liver spots. The best way to describe him was oddly cute, if you looked past his age and at the typical not-so-appreciative features. He did have scars though. Lots of them. Crisscrossing over his wrists from handcuffs dug too deep. Almost fingernail like scratches on his hips, and even a rather nasty scar just under his waist line where a bullet had grazed him (By Scarface itself) that only became visible once he yanked down his underwear.

 

Because yes, he did yank them down. He wasn't worried if Alfred saw his cock or not. It wasn't acting like it had earlier that morning, it was behaving, limp. Though once he got the underwear down and off, there was a light rush of blood.

 

..to his face. Because it dawned on him. Not that he was naked before the man, but his underwear. That's gross. He didn't want to give those to Alfred. They were balled up in his mismatched hands in front of his belly and he stammered. "I'll k-keep these.."

 

 

Alfred: "If you like-" Alfred was almost completely expressionless, but there was a tumult behind that clean, reflective monocle. Part of him wanted to laugh.. It was almost like Arnold was ashamed of the state of his underpants.. Of all things to be embarrassed of! But.. a second part of him felt very uncomfortable, because the third part wanted badly to reach out and feel what the pale scarred skin at his hip was like to touch. He was small and trembly wrapped up in his clothing- Imagine what he'd feel like without all that, how secure he'd be wrapped in your ar-

 

Now. Alfred.

 

He shook his head slightly when Arnold wasn't looking, swallowing. He wasn't too far gone to acknowledge that this attraction was entirely unhealthy. It wasn't even so much that Arnold was a man.. Alfred was too wrapped up in the WHY. You don't see him as an equal, do you, Alfred? You see him as a human.. More than most reformed criminals, sure, but not an equal. And can you really love someone you don't entirely respect? You don't love him, you just love how he makes you feel.

 

And, well.. If all you love is your own feelings, don't go being tender and doing him a disservice, not when you claim you want to help.

 

"I.. I'll go.." He mumbled, taking a step back. "If you want to be left alone.."

 

 

Wesker: Yes, aha, of all things, Arnie was worried over his underwear. But once, Alfred didn't insist on taking them, the little guy folded them up and put them on the bathroom counter. He didn't notice Alfred's inner turmoil over the situation, how could he? Granted, if he'd known, he might of curled up at the butler's feet and whined. To love or not to love.

 

What was happening between these two men? Was Arnie becoming attached to the butler? Vice-Versa? Or were they using each other for outlets to their own problems in life? Whatever the case was, Arnie knew that normally he would have skittered right home, yet here he was, he'd stayed, and of all things he was naked in front of another man.

 

Even if Arnie had slept in Alfred's arms last night, that didn't  mean he loved him, or the same thing right back. Just Alfred made him feel safe. Really safe. He didn't even mind the man looking at him. He did, however, catch the slight stutter in the other man's comment.

 

Brows raised a bit, and then Arnie bowed his head and let out a sheepish chuckle. "I..don't mind, but you don't have to stay if you don't w-want too.. Heh..  I can handle this myself."

 

Not like I expect you to come wash my back or something, no, not like that.  But even Arnie had to admit it was a stirring thought.

 

Stirring.. better get into the tub before something did start stirring. Thinking like that.

 

Right! He turned away quickly and walked over to the tub to turn on the water, bending just slightly. Alfred would at least be spared the usual bare-assed white-blinding eyeful. Since the ex-Ventriloquist never spent time in the sun, he didn't have obnoxious tan to none-tan areas. "T-thank you for everything."

 

 

Alfred: "My pleasure.." He had to bite his tongue before saying anything further, and took a few rapid steps back before turning and leaving the room. As the door clicked shut behind him, he let out a little uncharacteristically bitter curse. His walk down the long hall to the elevator wasn't brisk and calm so much as stiff and rushed, and when he released the lever as he reached the floor just above, he sighed.

 

He wasn't sure how to describe his feelings, or explain what brought them on.. Nothing made SENSE. The walk to the laundry room barely registered to the shaken butler, and he didn't realize where he'd been heading until he arrived. He tossed the items of clothing into the shallow basket just inside the door, and retrieved a few of Master Bruce's less expensive things from an outgoing rack. Bruce was a down to earth sort of fellow who placed his entire heart into his job, and the notion that he'd be upset over a missing shirt or two didn't even occur to the butler. In his state, nothing much occurred to him beside the burning desire to kiss that barely wrinkled forehead again.

 

Alfred furrowed his brow as he climbed back into the elevator, wiping his own forehead before pulling the lever. He was beginning to scare himself, thinking like that.. He hadn't had the urge to act on such libidinous feelings in so long.. But there was the thrill of having a sort of.. project, and that couldn't be mistaken for love or even lust. Not at all.

 

The hallway was warmer than he remembered.. Or was that him? Well. He clutched the clothing a bit closer to his chest as he stood in front of the door.

 

Can't go in.

 

No, can't go in until you get rid of this sort of.. Well.. Urge. Hmm. The urge to.. what, exactly?

 

The urge to take off his monocle and have a bath with the reformed little creature?

 

Alfred shuddered, bowing his head slightly, and wished desperately that he'd driven Arnold home. For the sake of BOTH of them. But he turned the knob and opened the door..

 

 

Wesker: Arnie blinked a bit under his glasses as Alfred headed out. He felt a bit of guilt wallow up in his throat. Maybe Alfred had really wanted to stay and talk to him some more? Maybe he had wanted to wash his back. Had Arnold's sudden independence upset him.

 

Don't get so cocky to think that it might pain someone to not spend time with you. He scolded himself.

 

So with a sigh, he plugged up the tub and let it fill up. Only once the tub was filled enough to his liking did he reach up and take off those glasses and set them on the top of the toilet. The world around him immediately became blurry, but he could see enough of the tub to settle himself down into the water.

 

Which was hotter then he'd originally thought. Shouldn't of used his calloused up hand to test it! Argh, it was a bit tougher then the rest of his weak soft body. Arnie grinned and bared the hot water though, Sinking into the tub and letting out a hard sigh.

 

Now he should of just been washing, getting in and out. He wasn't at home, he was suppose to be just cleaning up. But the ex-ventriloquist found his mind wandering. He couldn't help but think how nice it would be to have Alfred around every day. Not to do stuff for him, but just the other man's company. He'd never felt so safe in his life as he'd been last night. All the bad things that had every happened had been forgotten for a few blissful hours sleeping in those lightly wrapped arms. Amidst the drag of the Brit's breath, Arnie had forgotten everything about the mob, about black gate, Donnegon, Scarface, Arkham. It had just been them.

 

It had been nice.

 

God yes, if only it could last. Was it selfish of Arnold to even ponder what it would be like to spend the rest of his life with Alfred? If they were more then just random sleep over buddies, more then friends, more then...

 

The turning of the doorknob broke his daydreaming and Wesker sat up a bit. Blind blue eyes squinted, trying to see past his own bad vision and the water on his face. It had plastered what was left of his white hair to his temples and neck. "A-alfred?"

 

 

Alfred: The butler paused in the doorway, freezing in place, hand gingerly placed upon the doorknob. A thin mist of steam had begun to cloud the room, and the air was much warmer than in had been.

 

His glasses were off.

 

Without them, Arnold squinted toward the door, face set, and Alfred.. wasn't sure why he kept his mouth shut, watching quietly from the door. Maybe he didn't want to disturb the peaceful way he was sitting in the water?

 

Alfred had really better stop lying to himself.

 

He removed his hand from the doorknob but didn't move, didn't speak.. Just.. Watched, barely breathing. The white of his skin and his hair and the tile.. It all blended together in the steam rising off the water..

 

 

Wesker: Mmh. Maybe he'd been mistaken. Blind blue squinted a little harder toward the door of the bathroom, but he couldn't make out anything. He had trouble seeing his own hands in front of his face clearly, let alone across the damn room. Yet still, he'd been pretty sure he'd heard the door opening. And honestly he couldn't imagine Alfred would just be standing there, staring at him right?

 

Oh god, if only Arnie knew.

 

After another movement of squinting the ex-criminal finally just sighed out loud to himself and figured he really should get to washing. Mismatched hands fumble around the edge of the of the rather large tub till he finally found the soap...

 

.. and he knocked it right into the water. "Oh, darnnit."

 

That meant searching around the bottom of the tub for the slippery thing like an idiot.  Which he did, for almost a full minute before he came up with the thing and rubbed it together to form a sudsy foam to start washing himself with.

 

He'd barely started on one shoulder when he paused again and squinted at the door. He couldn't shake the feeling that someone was there, either that or the door was open. He felt that creeping panic starting in his chest.

 

Just grab your glasses and check.

 

So Arnold stood up in the tub, water poured off him, collected in his navel and continued lower, and he reached for his glasses on the top of the toilet.

 

 

Alfred: Alfred felt a creeping fear rise up in his throat, a mixture of shame and alarm, and closed the door with a loud click.

 

"Hullo, Arnold, just.. I have, ah, some new clothes.. " He came very close to stammering, trying to pretend he'd only just arrived, his grip on the white sleeve of the shirt near enough to bruise someone's arm. The fabric wasn't so easily affected. "I.." He gulped, not sure of what to do, and couldn't help his gaze from straying.. Oh my.

 

He felt red creeping over his face, despite his very best efforts.. He felt his facade cracking, shattering into several pieces on the floor. He felt as though his accent could turn Cockney and his gait could take on a loping quality at any second, he felt as though he could throw his monocle into the waste bin near the door. All he could do at the moment was drape the clothing over the closed lid of the toilet and snatch up the yellowy glasses before Wesker could take them and.. SEE.

 

 "These're all fogged up, do you no good.." He muttered, brows raising. Strangely beautiful, he was. One might think, 'he was a handsome young man!' But really, Alfred imagined his looks hadn't diminished at all.. Just changed.

 

 

Wesker: Even though Arnie couldn't see his hearing was quite fine. Even as Alfred tried his best to sound like nothing was wrong, Arnold could hear the uncertainty in his voice. He could tell something was off the norm for the bottlish butler.

 

"O-okay." He said lightly as Alfred snatched up his glasses in almost too quick of a manner. He accepted the excuse even though his own brain easily told him: you could wipe them off, there was a wash cloth right there. But Arnie was diligent in that manner; he would never argue with someone.

 

Yet he really did want to know what was wrong with Alfred. But certainly it wasn't because of him, right now! Certainly Arnold did not cause this heightened confused sense. Making Alfred catch his breath faster, his heart beat harder, feeling hot under the collar?

 

Arnie might of taken and nose dive into the bath, the sheer knowledge that someone was finding him appealing, dear god. That would've been too much, right? Or was it exactly what he might of needed to help him heal?

 

"T-thank you for the clothes.. I'll be done soon, just need to wash.." He slowly sat back down into the tub, ah but the nagging feeling wouldn't go away. "Maybe you should sit down f-for a moment, you sound out of breath. You d-don't have to rush around for me... Please." He didn't want Alfred waiting on him. He kind of really wished he could see him. Ah but he'd have to settled.

 

He shifted his head back down to stare blindly at the water, and then his brows canted in worry, mouth pulled in a sorrowful line. "... I lost the soap again.. " 

 

 

Alfred: He didn't need to be told twice! Alfred sat heavily upon the shut toilet, the plastic seat creaking just a little bit with the pressure. He allowed himself a slow out breath, fiddling with the glasses between rough fingers, and wiped them absentmindedly against his shirt.. Though they weren't even terribly foggy.

 

But then..

 

Alfred swallowed, eyes flicking to rest on the tub.. The water that had gotten slightly cloudy with soap, and he felt his hands trembling. He rested the glasses, after a few long moments' deliberation, upon the tile floor, and felt himself tugging off the coat with tails, felt him drape that over the toilet and felt himself kneeling beside the large ceramic basin. And then.

 

And then he wondered why the hell he was pushing up one shirtsleeve and..

 

Well! One could hardly protest with one's body when it acted.. Alfred couldn't protest with his arm as it felt carefully along the bottom of the tub, staying far away from the Ventriloquist's body.. As far as he could be. He wondered if Arnold could even see him there.. But the ripples from his arm and.. maybe even his shallow outward breaths.. They could be felt, most definitely.

 

 

Wesker: Arnold actually let out a little sigh of his how when he heard Alfred sit down. He didn't want the poor man running ragged. Not for him.. Not for him.

 

..and he certainly didn't expect Alfred to go and try to fish the soap for him! While he couldn't see Alfred outside of a blurry butler shaped mass, he could hear the water sloshing and feel the waves and yes, the other man's breath.

 

"Oh! No you don't have too! I can find it!!" Arnie let out a squeak and tried desperately to find the soap before the other did. Boy, this game should of brought back some horrible memories, but the only thing Arnie could think about was not making Alfred do anything more for him, he'd already done so much. The small man leaned forward in the tub as he franticly felt around for the elusive chiclet of soap.

 

He didn't find it.

 

But he DID find Alfred's own searching hand. For a moment calloused fingers soften by the hot water clasped onto the other's hand, squeezing briefly before he realized that wasn't the soap.  "Sorry!" He actually jerked, splashing.. poor Alfred with bath water.  Not even knowing he did it.

 

But then the ex-Ventriloquist did something strange. A low little laugh left him, and he smiled. "Gosh, I'm sorry, did I get you wet? Did you find the soap? God.. this must be so silly right now."

 

 

 

Alfred:  Even through the emotion that most closely resembled horror at his own actions.. Through all that, he could note how.. different the noise of a laugh sounded coming from that man. It was the sort of noise that made his heart prickle with warmth, and he withdrew his arm from the water, rested it on the edge of the tub. The sound of Arnold's laugh provoked a little chuckle from the butler, and he rested his chin on crossed arms.

 

"Don't worry about it."

 

Those hands had felt so sure around his.. Thinking that he'd found the soap, Arnold had grasped so eagerly and tightly..

 

The splash was nothing. In fact, it only charmed Alfred further. Yes.. It could have been the steam, it could have been that he wasn't quite feeling himself, but.. The mixture of pity and tenderness he felt for the other man was being joined with another, more intense flood of feeling.. The little nervous manner, the way he squinted, the way his hair stuck to his skin.. Alfred was charmed.

 

"Not a problem at all.."

 

 

Wesker: Arnold's wet head tilted a little, puppish like when the little scamps hear an interesting noise. So there he sat; naked in a tub with that escaped bar of soap melting somewhere in the tub (No doubt it was under his butt, that's where it always ended up when you loose soap, we just never bother to check.)

 

The smaller man squinted hard, blinking quite a bit. His vision was poor; but at this moment, he didn't need to see. He could hear the other man pause, rest, and that charming little chuckle he produced right back. It made Arnie want to laugh again, and then maybe cry a little bit. This felt good, and it was so strange.

 

"You've put up with s-so much from me in the last twelve hours.. I don't know how you could manage, I'm such a pest." He turned a bit in the water to face Alfred; he could see his outline barely. "Taking care of me while I was out, letting me cry on your shoulder, sleeping with me... " He trailed off and reached up with a wet hand to rub at his balding head, his cheeks were flushed and it wasn't from the hot water either.

 

"I c-can't thank you enough." That was nearly a whisper. Arnold dropped his chin to his chest in a humble manner. "You don't really have to spend more time with me, I appreciate w-what you've done so far."

 

He bite his own lip and sloshed a little nervously in the water. "Unless you want.. I'd want you too.. I mean.."

 

There was a short pause and then Wesker sighed loud. ".. are you sure you're not upset I splashed you?"

 

 

Alfred: "I'm not." There was something about the unsure sound of his voice and the way his head dropped.. Alfred tugged gently at his tie, undoing the bow of the thick black ribbon around his throat, and let the short strap fall on top of his coat. When that was done, he turned his attention back to his guest, one hand dipping into the water.

 

"It'll dry. It's just water.." And before he knew what he was doing, he was leaning forward.. Slowly, not wanting to startle the myopic fellow.. And placing his mouth right against Arnold's. Lightly, and not at all forcefully, but in such a way that Arnold could feel his intent without any question. Alfred remained there for a few long seconds before pulling back, letting out a shaky breath, gripping the white edges of the tub with uneasy hands.

 

"Just water."

 

 

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